It's time to let go...
When I saw you in kindergarten uniforms, I knew it's the time for a transition in life. That's when you're officially a student. That's when you start the journey everyone does AFTER the childhood. That's when you are going to stick to the school for a couple of years until you're as old as me.
Yet, I couldn't describe my feeling. May you never know how much I love you since the moment you're born - from the time I won't feel anything if you didn't exist to the time I appreciate your existance so much that I hardly imagine. Now you're no more baby, although I assume that you're, since the first sight on you.
We're brothers with 14 years difference in age. But I'm convinced that, there's no generation gap in our brotherhood, unlike you with other elders. I've tried my best to put myself into your life, I mean, a child or a baby world. I found out some ways to play with you, entertain you, guide you, train you and sometimes educate you on something. Of course, sometimes I fool you, at the level that can be forgiven. However, I have to say sorry for letting off negative emotions on you.
I know there's a couple of times I did bad to you, thinking that you're not big enough to judge what I was doing. Sorry again, brother. I know you will forget it when time goes on but it's undeniable my bad. Sorry, for I ever made you think I'm a bad brother. Sorry, for I ever be a bad example.
Just a few days ago, you're 5 years old. I can't forget how much you have given me, unknowingly, in these past 5 years. I like to hug you, I like you to snuggle up to me, I like to listen to you... And I like so much to see your world. You have been a pleasant part in my life. You are cute and naive enough to chase away the negative feelings of the people around you. You are obedient and seldom bring big trouble to us. You're making the world more lively and vivid. We love living with you.
Thanks so much for being here to teach me some lessons. Not only knowledge about a baby and a young being, but also some principles of living that have lost in adults' world. Through that, I know more about humanity and I believe you've taught me to be a better man.
Yes, it's the time I have to control myself to treat you as an older child. I can't hug you or treat you as a baby when the time is up. I have to do it gradually, little by little to give me and you some space to adapt it. I actually should have done it when you're 5 years old or younger, but I really miss it.
I wonder in what age you will be able to read this post. I wonder how much longer you have to take to understand my words here. I wonder how much I could do, to let you know more about our time together when you grow bigger. But there's one thing simple - I love you, and you love me.
OK, my little brother, this post is going to end. Now you're turning into a student while I may be leaving school. We both are moving to a different milestone in life. It could change our lives as well. As several years later, I will be spending my time working and you will be busy with your school life.
Arrrh, I just can't stop myself typing. It is so unfair to you, because I'm the only one having the right to keep our memories. All I can do is trying to recall them back to you, when you're interested to know. And lastly, sincerely, I wish you to live better than me. Regards.
Cheers...
After a Thousand Years
Hi everyone, I thought I won't be updating my blog until STPM is over. But here I found a translation of a chinese song's lyrics, and it's so beautiful in English, unexpectedly. It pretty looks like an original one.
Source: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dnKXYZEXOPQ
Regarding the video link above, the singer was unhealthy while he sang for Mid-Autumn Festival Celebration. Yet he was able to perform this song with no flaw (just the voice wasn't beautiful as usual). If you wish to listen to the official one, here it is: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fkzRnjfX_-Q
And, I still prefer his live performance, there are some in youtube.
Oh no, nearly forgot to say, cheers~~~
After a Thousand Years
My heart pounds wildly,
My dreams are in shackles,
Love is total commitment,
I won't say the word in 1000 years.
When there's nothing but dust,
In the ruin I'll keep you company,
My tears, too fragile,
To realize the love you wanted.
Because after 1000 years,
I'll be long gone from this world,
No longer able to hold your hand,
Or kiss your forehead tenderly.
So don't wait for me for 1000 years,
Until no one remembers me,
In the desert when the red dusk falls,
My millennium of loneliness will go unnoticed.
Source: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dnKXYZEXOPQ
Regarding the video link above, the singer was unhealthy while he sang for Mid-Autumn Festival Celebration. Yet he was able to perform this song with no flaw (just the voice wasn't beautiful as usual). If you wish to listen to the official one, here it is: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fkzRnjfX_-Q
And, I still prefer his live performance, there are some in youtube.
Oh no, nearly forgot to say, cheers~~~
Why Not The First Chapter
My little advice...
Let's say you are studying a subject in school, for example accounting. You do attend classes, but you're totally not interested in that subject. And that makes you never ever got serious while teacher's teaching, which means so far you learnt nothing. Now you feel there's no enough time left. For whatever sake you have to study that subject, starting from zero. All you have now are some familiar terms and a blur picture of some topics.
I'm sure you have tried to study that subject, at least once, before one of the exams. Most of us would start from the first chapter, planning to go through every chapter until the last one. But studying without teacher's guidance would cost so much effort. You may have given up before the first chapter, or totally exhausted right after the first chapter. Therefore you gave yourself a rest, before proceeding.
OK, the second time studying should be just fine, or as successful as the first time. But before that, we are too happy to have successfully finished the first chapter, so we would start from the first chapter, as a revision maybe. Then we ended up studying the whole chapter one again, because we found that we left out many important contents. This does not only happen for the second time, but for all the times we try to read.
Do you realize that? We are stuck to the first chapter. That's what I concluded, after doing self-revision for accounting, a couple of times. That's why everytime when I see my friends reading the first chapter, I would tell them by doing this they will never proceed.
To me, the second / third chapter and the popular ones are most advisable. First chapters are generally introduction, with the terms that we have already heard during normal lessons. So just jump to another chapter. But don't jump too far, when those chapters are related to the previous chapters. So why don't we try to read the second one and come back to the first one after that? I tried. It works all the time.
I wonder if the same theory applies to you, but I assume that as a common psycological phenomena. It sounds so scientific huh? Haha... Not funny, I know. But don't tease. This country currently needs harmony. Cheers.
Let's say you are studying a subject in school, for example accounting. You do attend classes, but you're totally not interested in that subject. And that makes you never ever got serious while teacher's teaching, which means so far you learnt nothing. Now you feel there's no enough time left. For whatever sake you have to study that subject, starting from zero. All you have now are some familiar terms and a blur picture of some topics.
I'm sure you have tried to study that subject, at least once, before one of the exams. Most of us would start from the first chapter, planning to go through every chapter until the last one. But studying without teacher's guidance would cost so much effort. You may have given up before the first chapter, or totally exhausted right after the first chapter. Therefore you gave yourself a rest, before proceeding.
OK, the second time studying should be just fine, or as successful as the first time. But before that, we are too happy to have successfully finished the first chapter, so we would start from the first chapter, as a revision maybe. Then we ended up studying the whole chapter one again, because we found that we left out many important contents. This does not only happen for the second time, but for all the times we try to read.
Do you realize that? We are stuck to the first chapter. That's what I concluded, after doing self-revision for accounting, a couple of times. That's why everytime when I see my friends reading the first chapter, I would tell them by doing this they will never proceed.
To me, the second / third chapter and the popular ones are most advisable. First chapters are generally introduction, with the terms that we have already heard during normal lessons. So just jump to another chapter. But don't jump too far, when those chapters are related to the previous chapters. So why don't we try to read the second one and come back to the first one after that? I tried. It works all the time.
I wonder if the same theory applies to you, but I assume that as a common psycological phenomena. It sounds so scientific huh? Haha... Not funny, I know. But don't tease. This country currently needs harmony. Cheers.
Stupid Senior Page!
Honestly, I really don't understand how they handle the senior page problem.
Last year, we had decided not to buy extra pages, by majority vote. Some people who like to take photos were quite disappointed. I wonder if what happens now shows their revenge.
Few days ago, someone came in and offered us 2 choices - RM260 for one Black & White Page and RM500 for one Color Page plus one Black and White Page. AS IF IT'S COMPULSORY. I did contact that guy and he said it's compulsory. But in fact it's not.
OK, some friends and I were looking forward to the further discussion of this, however those people in charge showed a very passive attitude and didn't take this to discussion. Fine. But guess what happened today?
Our class monitor suddenly announced that EVERYBODY HAS TO PAY RM10 for the senior page, THE RM500 PLAN WAS CHOSEN. What the heck? Discussion was never made but the decision had come out. I asked him personally after that, what he told me was, he thought there would be no problem making that decision. But I emphasized, have you even discussed with us?
I am quite sure his friends and he were trying to avoid the discussion, for not failing to make the senior page, again. My friends and I were really upset. They take a group's decision as the class decision? The like-to-take-photo group says it all, we just need to listen. They make the decision, and we just be ready to pay for the decision. So they're the class member, we're not. We're totally irrelevant to the discussion.
This burned us up but we didn't have enough time to deal with them. The peak was after recess, when everyone's in class. But teacher came in early, and those who're not resiting MUET had to move to the other class. However, after that period, the class monitor told us that the decision had been made through votes, during the MUET period. We're not needed to vote because majority voted for RM500, with 2 classes sharing the pages. What the heck again? You all voted and made decision when we're not around? We're not involved in the discussion again?
I tell you, I am extremely unsatisfied with what they've done. They're saying that we're not a part of the class. They say, they do, they decide. We just listen and support them financially. Just like how a dog treats its master. You like to take photos, but that doesn't mean we like too. You're willing to pay even if it costs RM20++, but we don't! Do you think we have a lot of money, to spend on such a lame thing? Do you realize, in average we pay more than RM10, or perhaps RM20 for school stuff each month? If it's for academic use, we're OK to sacrifice. But for things we really don't care, it's a poke.
You have so much to spend. But I don't have any extra to pay for your fun. I teach tuition at home, obtaining a salary of RM100++ a month. That's all I use to spend on transport (RM4 for each tuition class), food (to not be too hungry in school), mobile phone, stupid school "fees", saving and the others. For food, I try not to eat if the lessons end earlier. If there are some co-curricular activities, I would go back home to eat and come back to school again, in roughly 30 minutes. For mobile phone, I rarely use it when I don't need to use. And saving is essential, because I don't have much cash, and I have to prepare the money for the time I stop teaching tuition 1 or 2 months later, to give myself more time for STPM.
Talking about school "fees", that's what irritates me the most. The class fund should be RM1 (or RM2) per month. But every time when the treasurer sees me (more than once in a month), the debt has accumulated to a few bucks, but some are not for academic use. And more and more are coming, as teachers said STPM is near, we have to spend on stuff like past year questions.
Some people just don't have the sensory nerves. They're always thinking these are one-time payments. But do they see the real trend? How much do we pay every month, in average? There are too many one-time payments which are unnecessary. They appeared to be a few bucks, and those people just don't realize the money actually flows. Just like a leach sucking your blood, little by little, but you don't know you are losing your blood at such a rate. Please, be clear that this has to stop, not for the sake of stingy or selfishness.
I know you like to take photo, even at RM25 you would be willing to pay. But you still feel pain when you take out RM10, right? Or even after being subsidized, RM6. Could you all please think for us, who have zero interest in such thing? Don't we feel even more pain? Photos can be taken in so many ways, if you like that way so much, then share the price among yourselves, don't involve us.
Oh yeah, almost forgotten. You all don't want to involve us in discussions, but we're involved in paying. Clever. Thanks so much for your weightless respect. Now I know we're not a part of this class. So I don't have to pay for this class members' joy. See you in the low-price senior pages - 40++ faces fitting into a single page would be interesting and meaningful enough. Regards.
I just speak my mind. Offenses are toward the acts, not the persons. Cheers.
Last year, we had decided not to buy extra pages, by majority vote. Some people who like to take photos were quite disappointed. I wonder if what happens now shows their revenge.
Few days ago, someone came in and offered us 2 choices - RM260 for one Black & White Page and RM500 for one Color Page plus one Black and White Page. AS IF IT'S COMPULSORY. I did contact that guy and he said it's compulsory. But in fact it's not.
OK, some friends and I were looking forward to the further discussion of this, however those people in charge showed a very passive attitude and didn't take this to discussion. Fine. But guess what happened today?
Our class monitor suddenly announced that EVERYBODY HAS TO PAY RM10 for the senior page, THE RM500 PLAN WAS CHOSEN. What the heck? Discussion was never made but the decision had come out. I asked him personally after that, what he told me was, he thought there would be no problem making that decision. But I emphasized, have you even discussed with us?
I am quite sure his friends and he were trying to avoid the discussion, for not failing to make the senior page, again. My friends and I were really upset. They take a group's decision as the class decision? The like-to-take-photo group says it all, we just need to listen. They make the decision, and we just be ready to pay for the decision. So they're the class member, we're not. We're totally irrelevant to the discussion.
This burned us up but we didn't have enough time to deal with them. The peak was after recess, when everyone's in class. But teacher came in early, and those who're not resiting MUET had to move to the other class. However, after that period, the class monitor told us that the decision had been made through votes, during the MUET period. We're not needed to vote because majority voted for RM500, with 2 classes sharing the pages. What the heck again? You all voted and made decision when we're not around? We're not involved in the discussion again?
I tell you, I am extremely unsatisfied with what they've done. They're saying that we're not a part of the class. They say, they do, they decide. We just listen and support them financially. Just like how a dog treats its master. You like to take photos, but that doesn't mean we like too. You're willing to pay even if it costs RM20++, but we don't! Do you think we have a lot of money, to spend on such a lame thing? Do you realize, in average we pay more than RM10, or perhaps RM20 for school stuff each month? If it's for academic use, we're OK to sacrifice. But for things we really don't care, it's a poke.
You have so much to spend. But I don't have any extra to pay for your fun. I teach tuition at home, obtaining a salary of RM100++ a month. That's all I use to spend on transport (RM4 for each tuition class), food (to not be too hungry in school), mobile phone, stupid school "fees", saving and the others. For food, I try not to eat if the lessons end earlier. If there are some co-curricular activities, I would go back home to eat and come back to school again, in roughly 30 minutes. For mobile phone, I rarely use it when I don't need to use. And saving is essential, because I don't have much cash, and I have to prepare the money for the time I stop teaching tuition 1 or 2 months later, to give myself more time for STPM.
Talking about school "fees", that's what irritates me the most. The class fund should be RM1 (or RM2) per month. But every time when the treasurer sees me (more than once in a month), the debt has accumulated to a few bucks, but some are not for academic use. And more and more are coming, as teachers said STPM is near, we have to spend on stuff like past year questions.
Some people just don't have the sensory nerves. They're always thinking these are one-time payments. But do they see the real trend? How much do we pay every month, in average? There are too many one-time payments which are unnecessary. They appeared to be a few bucks, and those people just don't realize the money actually flows. Just like a leach sucking your blood, little by little, but you don't know you are losing your blood at such a rate. Please, be clear that this has to stop, not for the sake of stingy or selfishness.
I know you like to take photo, even at RM25 you would be willing to pay. But you still feel pain when you take out RM10, right? Or even after being subsidized, RM6. Could you all please think for us, who have zero interest in such thing? Don't we feel even more pain? Photos can be taken in so many ways, if you like that way so much, then share the price among yourselves, don't involve us.
Oh yeah, almost forgotten. You all don't want to involve us in discussions, but we're involved in paying. Clever. Thanks so much for your weightless respect. Now I know we're not a part of this class. So I don't have to pay for this class members' joy. See you in the low-price senior pages - 40++ faces fitting into a single page would be interesting and meaningful enough. Regards.
I just speak my mind. Offenses are toward the acts, not the persons. Cheers.
The MUET Result
Yesterday was a pleasant day, overall.
If you have read my previous posts, I bet you already knew the reason why I care so much about my MUET result. I was high Band 2 when I came Form 6, and I wish to go out with at least Band 4.
I was supposed to get the result on Thursday, but what happened was, I couldn't find my uniform in the morning, so I didn't go to school for class. After that I switched on the washing machine to get my cloths clean but my mother somehow found the red shirt that I should wear on Thursdays. It couldn't make any changes anyway, because the lessons had already started.
So I went to school after the class, to get the result and attend a meeting and a co-curricular activity. When I saw the teacher, she refused to give me, instead, she asked me to see another teacher and explain to her why I was not in school. I tried, but unfortunately the teacher was not there, so I came back to attend the meeting. Right after that I went for the co-curricular activity mentioned.
When everyone was ready to leave, I met the teacher again, and what she told me was "It's inside there, I'm not going to take out. I remember yours is a BAND 3. Erm, yeah, BAND 3." Haiz, what to do? Have to wait until Friday (yesterday).
However, I still tried to check via internet to get the result. After a couple of times trying, finally the page loaded. It showed some simple information, that are my IC number, name, index number and my band, of course. What it showed was different than what teacher told, which was a Band 4. Not much surprised however, because somehow I felt teacher might be correct.
On the following day, the first thing I did when I reached school was... Yeah, you're right. Finally I got my result officially. And here came a glad news, I was lucky enough to get Band 4, here's the detail.
Why I said I'm lucky, it's because the test was so much harder than expected. According to my friend, there were a total of 12 students who got Band 2. 1 of the students even got Band 1. Another proof is, two students who should have got Band 6 only got Band 5, and they're the only two who got higher than Band 4. The rest are mostly Band 3.
Another lucky thing is, my score is slightly higher than my friend's. Guess how much higher? He got 204. Haha, there's a 1 mark difference, considered win? I told him I WILL retake if I can't beat him. By the way, I was not the only lucky person. There were some students who just crossed the border to get Band 4, congratulation, you're not going to resit the test anymore.
However, on the other side, some people were extremely unlucky. They got Band 2, with just 2-5 marks more to reach Band 3, which is the primary requirement to get into university. I heard that one of them broke down badly. It could be understood, since he could get a 4.0 CGPA but his MUET is crucial. It's just like everything is well prepared, but you can't get the key to open the door.
So, the next question will be whether to resit the paper. Band 4 is probably enough, but it's just slightly higher than the primary requirement. Could I get a higher Band? I need to get 15 marks more. I can, only if I am able to maintain the marks, with some improvement in speaking and writing, especially for writing. How hard it is, don't know, but probably the second test will be easier than this one. Should I spend another RM60? My decision is still processing, I'm going to think until my brain juice comes out.
Erm, there's nothing more to say. Cheers. Have a nice day.
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In case you don't know anything about MUET...
It's basically an English test which is ONLY recognized in Malaysia and Singapore, and it comes with an EXPIRY DATE as well. (Don't laugh!) The best thing about MUET is the price. The "Band" description is as follow:
If you have read my previous posts, I bet you already knew the reason why I care so much about my MUET result. I was high Band 2 when I came Form 6, and I wish to go out with at least Band 4.
I was supposed to get the result on Thursday, but what happened was, I couldn't find my uniform in the morning, so I didn't go to school for class. After that I switched on the washing machine to get my cloths clean but my mother somehow found the red shirt that I should wear on Thursdays. It couldn't make any changes anyway, because the lessons had already started.
So I went to school after the class, to get the result and attend a meeting and a co-curricular activity. When I saw the teacher, she refused to give me, instead, she asked me to see another teacher and explain to her why I was not in school. I tried, but unfortunately the teacher was not there, so I came back to attend the meeting. Right after that I went for the co-curricular activity mentioned.
When everyone was ready to leave, I met the teacher again, and what she told me was "It's inside there, I'm not going to take out. I remember yours is a BAND 3. Erm, yeah, BAND 3." Haiz, what to do? Have to wait until Friday (yesterday).
However, I still tried to check via internet to get the result. After a couple of times trying, finally the page loaded. It showed some simple information, that are my IC number, name, index number and my band, of course. What it showed was different than what teacher told, which was a Band 4. Not much surprised however, because somehow I felt teacher might be correct.
On the following day, the first thing I did when I reached school was... Yeah, you're right. Finally I got my result officially. And here came a glad news, I was lucky enough to get Band 4, here's the detail.
Test Component | Maximum Score | Obtained Score |
LISTENING | 45 | 32 |
SPEAKING | 45 | 30 |
READING | 120 | 88 |
WRITING | 90 | 55 |
AGGREGATED SCORE | 300 | 205 |
BAND ACHIEVED | 4 | |
Why I said I'm lucky, it's because the test was so much harder than expected. According to my friend, there were a total of 12 students who got Band 2. 1 of the students even got Band 1. Another proof is, two students who should have got Band 6 only got Band 5, and they're the only two who got higher than Band 4. The rest are mostly Band 3.
Another lucky thing is, my score is slightly higher than my friend's. Guess how much higher? He got 204. Haha, there's a 1 mark difference, considered win? I told him I WILL retake if I can't beat him. By the way, I was not the only lucky person. There were some students who just crossed the border to get Band 4, congratulation, you're not going to resit the test anymore.
However, on the other side, some people were extremely unlucky. They got Band 2, with just 2-5 marks more to reach Band 3, which is the primary requirement to get into university. I heard that one of them broke down badly. It could be understood, since he could get a 4.0 CGPA but his MUET is crucial. It's just like everything is well prepared, but you can't get the key to open the door.
So, the next question will be whether to resit the paper. Band 4 is probably enough, but it's just slightly higher than the primary requirement. Could I get a higher Band? I need to get 15 marks more. I can, only if I am able to maintain the marks, with some improvement in speaking and writing, especially for writing. How hard it is, don't know, but probably the second test will be easier than this one. Should I spend another RM60? My decision is still processing, I'm going to think until my brain juice comes out.
Erm, there's nothing more to say. Cheers. Have a nice day.
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In case you don't know anything about MUET...
It's basically an English test which is ONLY recognized in Malaysia and Singapore, and it comes with an EXPIRY DATE as well. (Don't laugh!) The best thing about MUET is the price. The "Band" description is as follow:
AGGREGATED SCORE | BAND |
260 – 300 | 6 |
220 – 259 | 5 |
180 – 219 | 4 |
140 – 179 | 3 |
100 – 139 | 2 |
< 100 | 1 |
Are They Really Stars?
If you ask, what is the most romantic thing to do. I would definitely answer, "Watching stars." Yeah, I do love stars, but sometimes I get confused. Anyway, stars are not just about blinking, they also lie in the blue blue sky, at night, which makes them even more romantic.
Imagine. You're laying on a land of grass. And you're looking at the sky. That's the time you hug the whole beautiful atmosphere. The stars are yours. They're so beautiful, lovely, but also very far away.
But I get confused when I try to reach the stars. Impossible, right? That's not the point. The truth is, they're actually enormous fireballs, just like the sun. That's nothing romantic, just an extremely high temperature, and some blast that's ready for you. It's similar to friendship and love. They aren't the same as can be seen, in fact, they're so much uglier. What I want to say, I'm just a fool, just realized.
Imagine. You're laying on a land of grass. And you're looking at the sky. That's the time you hug the whole beautiful atmosphere. The stars are yours. They're so beautiful, lovely, but also very far away.
But I get confused when I try to reach the stars. Impossible, right? That's not the point. The truth is, they're actually enormous fireballs, just like the sun. That's nothing romantic, just an extremely high temperature, and some blast that's ready for you. It's similar to friendship and love. They aren't the same as can be seen, in fact, they're so much uglier. What I want to say, I'm just a fool, just realized.
KGMMB
Just to share something "interesting" that I saw on teacher's table today. For not being caught by ISA, I had better stay silent and just highlight some main points. You guess the meaning.
Again, I repeat, I didn't comment anything on this. You've yours. Cheers.
FALSAFAH
Kesatuan Guru-Guru Melayu Malaysia Barat (KGMMB) sebagai kesatuan profesional dalam bidang pendidikan mendukung dan memperjuangkan pembinaan "Negara Bangsa" berasaskan Rukun Negara dan Falsafah Pendidikan Negara melalui perencanaan dan perlaksanaan peningkatan profesionalisme, kebajikan serta maruah guru Melayu dan bangsa Melayu.
WAWASAN
Menjadikan KGMMB sebagai kesatuan yang berwibawa meningkat mertabat dan kecemerlanagan guru Melayu serta bengsa Melayu ke arah pembinaan "Negara Bangsa" yang Maju dan Dinamik.
MISI
Komited terhadap kepentingan guru Melayu dan bangsa Melayu.
Gigih bergerak dan berjuang secara global.
Mengekalkan ketuanan Melayu.
Meningkatkan daya saing guru Melayu dan bangsa Melayu dalam segala bidang.
Berupaya, bebas dan berani mengembleng sepenuhnya guna tenaga guru Melayu di semua peringkat institusi pengajian.
Gigih bergerak dan berjuang secara global.
Mengekalkan ketuanan Melayu.
Meningkatkan daya saing guru Melayu dan bangsa Melayu dalam segala bidang.
Berupaya, bebas dan berani mengembleng sepenuhnya guna tenaga guru Melayu di semua peringkat institusi pengajian.
Again, I repeat, I didn't comment anything on this. You've yours. Cheers.
MUET and Me
Let me start with the normal opening - It's been a long time since I last updated my blog (both), haha. Not really busy or running out of idea, but just not in mood to write. But previously I was really annoyed by R&D.
After getting rid of R&D, I thought I was going to blog about it very soon. But then I realized I was not the right mood. I need more time. And until now, I still want to relax more, release more.
Coming right after the R&D project, it's MUET test, including reading (comprehension), writing (essay) and listening. Or maybe this made me a little bit more nervous, because by now, out of Form 6 subjects, what I really care is MUET.
So why do I care about it so much? Maybe it has something to do with my first ambition. Erm, since it's a bit sensitive, so I am not to tell out this moment. Overall, I don't like English, but I have to learn English, with no interest.
The will of studying English came into my mind during my Form 5 time, if not mistaken. That's the time I started to make an effort to improve my English, but not really much. What I did that time was try to make proper sentences, with lesser grammar mistakes. In term of vocabulary, I was left so far behind the train, so I didn't have the heart to memorize English words yet.
However, that didn't make much difference. But I did get some praise from teacher. Until the time I entered Form 6, I knew I needed to make a change. A little grammar may be impressing in essay, but lack of vocabulary just makes the article meaningless. Therefore I started to approach English medias. I read some IT news in English, watch some NBA videos, in English. LoL.
OK, be serious. The time when I joined Form 6, I was in high band 2. All I knew were present tense, past tense, present continuous and other simple grammar rules which we already learned in primary school. However, I was lucky enough to get high band 2 because compared to many of the students who don't know about tenses, I still have something left.
And I still remember, I have one friend who can't understand chinese. Due to my poor English command, I used to talk with him in Malay, from Form 1 to Form 5. But after I reach Form 6, I saw everyone talked to him in English, regardless how well they can speak. So I was thinking, it's time to change. And from that day on, until now, I never speak Malay with those who can understand English (excluding Malays).
Now it's been nearly 1 year. My past exam result in MUET was high band 3, with 4 marks left to get band 4. Yeah, only 4 marks. I can't say I am really commited, but I see the result. What I have been doing works.
To sort out briefly, that's the reason why I do care about MUET result. I came here with high band 2, I hope to get out of here with at least band 4. I know I've got no much time to waste - After this year I will be 20, English would be essential.
Hopefully you can see my improvement in this passage. Sometimes when I was looking back, I even felt surprised because I couldn't understand such a common word, or I did very idiotic mistakes. And before I end, I tell you what I've prepared for this exam. Watching James Bond trailer (for listening) and Michael Jordan (for fun), reading a few interviews of Lee Kuan Yew and John's blog (writing and reading) and the last moment, I did revision on graphs and charts. They do help, but how was the exam, I will explain next time, which is considered quite negative.
Oh yeah, before I forget, for those who are taking MUET, good luck. The exam is not over yet, let's strive together to get what we should get, or what we could get. Lastly, the classic single word ending - Cheers.
After getting rid of R&D, I thought I was going to blog about it very soon. But then I realized I was not the right mood. I need more time. And until now, I still want to relax more, release more.
Coming right after the R&D project, it's MUET test, including reading (comprehension), writing (essay) and listening. Or maybe this made me a little bit more nervous, because by now, out of Form 6 subjects, what I really care is MUET.
So why do I care about it so much? Maybe it has something to do with my first ambition. Erm, since it's a bit sensitive, so I am not to tell out this moment. Overall, I don't like English, but I have to learn English, with no interest.
The will of studying English came into my mind during my Form 5 time, if not mistaken. That's the time I started to make an effort to improve my English, but not really much. What I did that time was try to make proper sentences, with lesser grammar mistakes. In term of vocabulary, I was left so far behind the train, so I didn't have the heart to memorize English words yet.
However, that didn't make much difference. But I did get some praise from teacher. Until the time I entered Form 6, I knew I needed to make a change. A little grammar may be impressing in essay, but lack of vocabulary just makes the article meaningless. Therefore I started to approach English medias. I read some IT news in English, watch some NBA videos, in English. LoL.
OK, be serious. The time when I joined Form 6, I was in high band 2. All I knew were present tense, past tense, present continuous and other simple grammar rules which we already learned in primary school. However, I was lucky enough to get high band 2 because compared to many of the students who don't know about tenses, I still have something left.
And I still remember, I have one friend who can't understand chinese. Due to my poor English command, I used to talk with him in Malay, from Form 1 to Form 5. But after I reach Form 6, I saw everyone talked to him in English, regardless how well they can speak. So I was thinking, it's time to change. And from that day on, until now, I never speak Malay with those who can understand English (excluding Malays).
Now it's been nearly 1 year. My past exam result in MUET was high band 3, with 4 marks left to get band 4. Yeah, only 4 marks. I can't say I am really commited, but I see the result. What I have been doing works.
To sort out briefly, that's the reason why I do care about MUET result. I came here with high band 2, I hope to get out of here with at least band 4. I know I've got no much time to waste - After this year I will be 20, English would be essential.
Hopefully you can see my improvement in this passage. Sometimes when I was looking back, I even felt surprised because I couldn't understand such a common word, or I did very idiotic mistakes. And before I end, I tell you what I've prepared for this exam. Watching James Bond trailer (for listening) and Michael Jordan (for fun), reading a few interviews of Lee Kuan Yew and John's blog (writing and reading) and the last moment, I did revision on graphs and charts. They do help, but how was the exam, I will explain next time, which is considered quite negative.
Oh yeah, before I forget, for those who are taking MUET, good luck. The exam is not over yet, let's strive together to get what we should get, or what we could get. Lastly, the classic single word ending - Cheers.
Happy Belated New Year!
Lol, sorry I'm late again.
Just to wish you all a Happy New Year. And never forget those who are suffering at another corner of the world. Yeah, we are having fun through the festival, but there're just too many who are suffering.
A new year has come. All I wish is the world to be peace. To achive that, please respect each other's religion and love the earth. It's just that simple. Whoever thinks other religions are evil or try to slander any other religion, he/her is heading to hell. Same thing happens on those who intentially tranlate their religions wrongly or promote their own religions in immoral ways.
While saying about religions, I'm always serious. I am not to discuss with zero knowledge. I hope you all understand I never meant to offend or to do something bad. I always make sure all information given to be constructive and flawless (as I can). When I heard about people burn church or throw wild boar's head to mosque, I was really really sad. The sin is bigger than what we can think of.
The fact is there're too many offenders, some are even haters, I wonder why. Believe what they believe is more than enough, why attack others' to promote their owns'? If they just do orally, then they're idiot. But if they do it in action, that means they are evil. For me, they should be punished by law. Not because I dislike them, it's because they destroy world's peace and bring disasters.
An example, destroying Buddha's figure, which happens in this civilized country. Another example, claiming Einstein and Darwin are pro-Christianity, while the facts are Einstein didn't belong to any religion and they both doubt Christianity. Besides, there's over 90% of monks and buddhists provide misleading or totally wrong information about Buddhism, no wonder people saying Buddhism is superstitious?
The world needs peace. Don't cause trouble. Every religion wants harmony, love, but not to destroy other religions. If you think hating on races is idiotic, the same logic falls on religious issues. Isn't it?
And, together we live, together we take care of each other's survival. So treat the earth well. I really wish to see the earth to be healthy, fresh and beautiful. Let the greenness maintains as it was.
Again, sorry for my poor English. Those are my new year wishes, how about yours? Cheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeers and Happy New Year ^ ^
Hong Bao Na Lai
Just to wish you all a Happy New Year. And never forget those who are suffering at another corner of the world. Yeah, we are having fun through the festival, but there're just too many who are suffering.
A new year has come. All I wish is the world to be peace. To achive that, please respect each other's religion and love the earth. It's just that simple. Whoever thinks other religions are evil or try to slander any other religion, he/her is heading to hell. Same thing happens on those who intentially tranlate their religions wrongly or promote their own religions in immoral ways.
While saying about religions, I'm always serious. I am not to discuss with zero knowledge. I hope you all understand I never meant to offend or to do something bad. I always make sure all information given to be constructive and flawless (as I can). When I heard about people burn church or throw wild boar's head to mosque, I was really really sad. The sin is bigger than what we can think of.
The fact is there're too many offenders, some are even haters, I wonder why. Believe what they believe is more than enough, why attack others' to promote their owns'? If they just do orally, then they're idiot. But if they do it in action, that means they are evil. For me, they should be punished by law. Not because I dislike them, it's because they destroy world's peace and bring disasters.
An example, destroying Buddha's figure, which happens in this civilized country. Another example, claiming Einstein and Darwin are pro-Christianity, while the facts are Einstein didn't belong to any religion and they both doubt Christianity. Besides, there's over 90% of monks and buddhists provide misleading or totally wrong information about Buddhism, no wonder people saying Buddhism is superstitious?
The world needs peace. Don't cause trouble. Every religion wants harmony, love, but not to destroy other religions. If you think hating on races is idiotic, the same logic falls on religious issues. Isn't it?
And, together we live, together we take care of each other's survival. So treat the earth well. I really wish to see the earth to be healthy, fresh and beautiful. Let the greenness maintains as it was.
Again, sorry for my poor English. Those are my new year wishes, how about yours? Cheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeers and Happy New Year ^ ^
Gong Xi Fa Cai
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