Under Pressure

Tell you all something. I am feeling very worry about next Monday match. It is a small basketball contest organized by our school students.

Yeah, I know, you may think that I am kinda foolish. Sincerely and honestly, I never ever scare losing. It is just a battle, there will be winners and losers. Though I don't want to lose.

I told this to my friend, their responds are likely negative --- You are not fighting for your state, but in school only, that means winning or losing doesn't mean anything. Yeah, I admit that I took it quite serious. I don't expect to get the prizes or whatever rewards, all I want is just to win, I WANT TO WIN.

At first, I was quite confident facing the next team. I was confident on my offensive skills and my ability to stop some opponents from getting easy baskets. But a fact has been forsaken --- in our team there're only me and another guy can do things at safe level. While the opponent team included 3 players who can score and defend. I was planning to minimize my misses to leave them apart because our defence is too poor.

Yet, later I discovered that scoring is not that easy, although opponent players couldn't really stop me single-handedly. As I tried to play with people who don't know about basketball, I found that their defence is still suffocating. Without proper rules, they could do anything to stop you. While at the same time, you cannot do things that against the rules.

A simple reason, because they don't know how to play, so the referee won't call them for foul easily. So they are franchise players. Now the case is I have to face franchise players, but not rookies.

OK, stop discussing about this. Let's say if we won them, then we would go to the final. On the same day, we will be fighting for the second time, with a real team. The real team means every player inside knows about basketball. It is too difficult for us. They could do defence, we cannot. Everyone of them can score, whereas only 2 of us can score.

You know, defence is the major part of games. Without defence, it is going to be tough --- tougher than we imagined. The only thing to cure is getting a rebounder, that's all I need for now, I don't expect more. If this happened, that means the game became fairer. One of the reason is our team doesn't have a rebounder, and another reason for it is the opponent team also doesn't have a rebounder.

I don't mind if we have to make much more efforts in the fight, but what I hope is fighting with a chance to win. Even myself also couldn't explain why I want to win so much. It is not about rewards or reputation or anything, but when I am in game, I am responsible for it --- for the win. The competition is organized for competition, whereby we could enjoy and experience it.

Therefore, there's no point to devote everything into a sure-lose game. No point to let opponents absolutely own us. No point.

Hopefully everything will just be fine. We will get a suitable player for rebounding. The following games won't cost our energy that much. Well, it is just a dream, lol. Cheers.